I feel so bad

I feel terrible, it’s Suzanne’s birthday today, and I’m broke. I can’t even take her out to dinner tonight.

Granted, I did buy her a very nice ruby necklace that she said could be her b-day present, but still, why am I working 8 hours a day for it? It makes me feel so worthless. At least we’ll be eating at home tonight.

The wedding is drawing closer now, and things are starting to come together. I got my tux ordered, and it looks good. I still need to check on hotels and get the website done. Like a good geek, I’m making a little wedding website for things like registry and directions.

Right now I’m sitting at The Te’ Café typing all this into my iPaq. I’m so very glad I bought a wifi card for this thing. I’ve had this little gadget for over 6 years now, and it’s still going strong.

Things at work are sucking major right now, I had an interview with the Inspectors & OIG about an issue I was somewhat involved in, and now I feel as if I’m under a microscope. I’ve been thinking about telling my boss to not renew my contract, but I am so close to becoming debt-free, that if I can stick it out until March, then I can get a lower-paying job.
Right now I’m paying $430.00 a month, so once that is done, then I could work for under $20/hr and still make pretty much what I’m making now.

Right now, my biggest problem is, I can’t seem to finish anything. I have so much on my plate right now that I can’t work on something through completion. I really need to stop taking on any more projects until the others are done, but you all know how that goes.

If I think about things long enough, it makes me sick.

…I feel ill.

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